Before Darkness Falls

I remember sunny days
That seared away my embedded pains

For within those hours
Before darkness fell
And I'd contour myself
Into this shell

I would fondle with life
As I knew it to be
Taking in completely
Her immaculent beauty
Owning again the joy that was missing

Beautiful lie I am
Deceiving myself with scam

Am I to think happiness I'd behold
When once more my dignity
I released and sold

Please I beseech, before darkness falls
And I'm alone with distressing thoughts

When an instant will come upon the night
When I have freed my eyes from their sight

Rescue me from all that I shy
Darkness falls but I shall not die

The Scientist

My mistakes have become your scientific study
You examine my breakdown and
Invisible parts to prove that I am nothing

You are perplexed at how my substance
Could formulate this transcendent mold
In a state of your confusion
As you try to decipher my code

Well you famed scientist
Its not for you my fragments to contemplate
Or my errors proceed to rate

You have claimed me as your project
On display for all to see
Under a microscope all my imperfections
But still you can't figure me

I am an abstraction on a colored canvas
What you see is not what is
So I'd say to you oh scientist
Become a painter
Perhaps redeem the theory you've missed

Walk Away

The one thing I need to walk away from
Keeps tempting and leading me on
I accept and as I am taken my heart grows numb

This undying attraction
This unspoken distraction
What ties us together
Is an illusive satisfaction

Letting go of you is my attaining thought
But whenever we part
Against my mind there is assault
Because images of you I'm unable to exhaust

Conspiring to get to you becomes my talented art
Instead of walking away, running to you I start

Please go way from here
Please from my heart keep clear
I've been lured into the danger zone
The consequences of this, before I have been shown

So why pursue it again
Why do my actions I defend
Leave me to myself, why not say
Why not walk away

My Addiction

I'm addicted
For my habit has intensified
I'm addicted
For this drug my urges I cannot hide
I'm addicted
It keeps me up all through the night
I'm addicted
I desire it bad, I cannot fight
Again and again, you are my addiction my sin
Please give me up that I may win

I LOVE A GOOD QUOTE

"In life, as in art, the beautiful moves in curves"

"If you wish to be loved, show more of your faults than your virtues"

"Happiness is a Swedish Sunset, it is there for all, but most of us look the other way and lose it"

"The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good"

"If someone shows you who they are, BELIEVE THEM"

FORGET REGRETS, OR LIFE IS YOURS TO MISS

Concealed In Me

Inside you attempt to go
That my weaknesses I may disclose
But from you I've conserved myself
My inner thoughts, I dare not unfold

I possess what is private and unknown
Hidden to some, my secrets are all that I own

Comfortable it is for me to shade myself from uncertainty
For these walls I've put up
They have become my stability

You try to delve deep to discover what I'm feeling
Not because you are interested in the significance of my meaning
But because you are a fraud
You like to deceive me with the fakeness of your being

As I behold you getting near and around my proximity
Away from you I advance
I see all your deformities

It was yesterday when I stumbled many with all my troubling ways
And where were you when I needed solace through all my pains

Within me where the core of me lies
Where my character and identity hides
Where my heartache and misery thrives
Is she who is real, not ordinary, someone divine

Carefully concealed in me is an army you cannot defeat
My faith, my hope, my impregnability
These are the soldiers that battle for me
You see, I have accepted who I've come to be