Existence

Beautiful it is to have come to be
From your soul
You brought me into existence

From your light I appear out of the darkness
My lifeline, you guide me
When I am unsure of my own reality

Enhancing my ability to love, feel, dream
My professor in lessons of stability
My rock when all that surrounds me
Are grains of sand

Your energy evelops me
No choice but to submit
To the force that entices me
We are one

When these walls are closing in
A secret exit you extend to me
You become my freedom
I am alive again

Within your strong arms
I take hold of refuge
You are my breath, my support
When I am flatlining over all my troubles

A brilliant moon in an empty sky
You shine as a masterpiece
You are the object of all my glory

My root that sustains me
The guitar that my strings attach to
You are my life
The reason why I exist is YOU.

Never Leave You

How could I leave you on your knees
Naked and cold, exposed
Compromised and torn

The thought of stripping you of all your dignity
Is as foreign to my mind as the dead sea

And so I clothe you with an unmatchless love
A love that we both shall die for
Only you and I can comprehend
A fantasy to those on the outside looking in

My umbrella of strength
Protects you from raining bullets of rejection
Wounds from your past
I bandage with my sensitivity
Your fears are mines to fight

Stand up as a man
Grab hold of my hand
I will never leave you on your knees
Together we will win

Illusion

As a fly away feather unblemished in a bloodied kill
Is my sweet escape as I take to flight
Leaving the soul that lays extinct

I had been running for miles
And then I came to a stop
I found myself standing at the beginning point
Was it an illusion or was it the deception
That convinced me that I was really moving

The needle that threads fantasy and reality
Left an equality in me that was indistinct
And a freedom that was imagined

The sanity that vanished from me
Is the single pedal
That detached itself from the rose
I peeled away from the source of all my beauty

Have I swam too far out to sea
Have I drowned in the ecstasy of my pride
Only the stars can envision my path
My pedal dances across the graveled surface
How long will it survive

The Cold Inside

As the waters are deep that cover over the still earth
Are the thoughts of my bosom
That have have subdued all of my mirth

The woman I am inside is as cold as the artic air
To touch my surface
You have exposed youself to the windchill
That once stripped me bare

The rebellion that festers in the inward parts of my being
Is the act of a lioness that uses the day
To capture her prey
In place of the dark evening

You are a damned mockery
You confiscated all that defined me
With your callace and my identity
Away you went fleeing

And so now what has evolved
Within the hidden place of my center
Is a storm let on the loose
Untamed in the dead of winter

The sin that I contemplate
Against the one who took it all
Is the force keeping me alive
I'm waiting consciously for your fall

By Your Side

You say my hands are untied
And that it's you that I've denied
I have closed my eyes
I have abandoned your side

I am the one scarred
I am the one who caught your star
Shining from a distance
Because of me the world knows who you are

I am the one that gave expression to your face
I am the one who pulled you out of your forsaken place

A dead flower lay dwelling in an empty bed
It was me who brought you back to life, you blossomed
So you said

You were an incomplete chapter unable to be named
Until I came and laid down the words
And so a novel you became

When you were testing the waters
And couldn't even swim
I carried you through the deep
On my back rested all of your whim

It was all of my strength that you were able to rise
The nerve with all of your pride
King in your eyes
Never acknowledging the Queen by your side

In time a star does fall
And in time a flower will die
In time a novel does end
And in time the waters run dry
It is then when you remember my love
As you glance at your right side

Prey

He is filled with lies
A lion in a kitten's disguise

On concrete he stands
As though a mighty man
But what lies beneath
Is a mound of sand

So you he can deceive
He has put his heart on his sleeve
And so naive, can't recognize his scheme
Just like Eve, the snake you believe

An impregnable beast has become your fall
A corruptible fool is what you are
Prey in his den, into calamity you crawl

But if you examine closely, the foundation is cracked
His identity is exposed, leaving you in control
For you see what he lacks

Therefore his power is scanty
You hold it in your hands
His dignity becomes threatened
He becomes prey in his own den

The Hollow From Within

My emotions have abandoned me

No longer dwelling in my presence

They have denied me their company

Now hollow within, I'm on a search again

To arrest what has escaped

And my affections apprehend

I am empty no more possessing the sensitivity

That once lingered here

You have set your fears in front of my face

But consolation is nowhere near

I am cold and I am weightless

This hollow within has left me shameless

You have died, I shed no tear

You have breath but your presence I have placed in the rear

Where have you gone, where do you reside

Nothing to inhabit my soul

I'm hollow inside

I am alive, where are the signs

You once appealed to my senses

But now they're on the run, not one can I find

When you cry it is I who remains still

When you are happy it is your joy that I kill

I am racing against time to capture the heart

That has gone with the wind

I am struggling to reinstate the passion

That my name comes not to an end

An apathetic reality I know is what you think of me

A silhouette is all that I am

An outline of what should be

Unable to understand clearly the vision that beholds thee

This inevitable truth has significantly been defined

Betrayed by what I owned

I have strategically been maligned

And so it is

The element that once was my enemy

I now aim to defend

I now know it is not that I've chosen to pretend

I am convinced it is the hollow from within

Before Darkness Falls

I remember sunny days
That seared away my embedded pains

For within those hours
Before darkness fell
And I'd contour myself
Into this shell

I would fondle with life
As I knew it to be
Taking in completely
Her immaculent beauty
Owning again the joy that was missing

Beautiful lie I am
Deceiving myself with scam

Am I to think happiness I'd behold
When once more my dignity
I released and sold

Please I beseech, before darkness falls
And I'm alone with distressing thoughts

When an instant will come upon the night
When I have freed my eyes from their sight

Rescue me from all that I shy
Darkness falls but I shall not die

The Scientist

My mistakes have become your scientific study
You examine my breakdown and
Invisible parts to prove that I am nothing

You are perplexed at how my substance
Could formulate this transcendent mold
In a state of your confusion
As you try to decipher my code

Well you famed scientist
Its not for you my fragments to contemplate
Or my errors proceed to rate

You have claimed me as your project
On display for all to see
Under a microscope all my imperfections
But still you can't figure me

I am an abstraction on a colored canvas
What you see is not what is
So I'd say to you oh scientist
Become a painter
Perhaps redeem the theory you've missed

Walk Away

The one thing I need to walk away from
Keeps tempting and leading me on
I accept and as I am taken my heart grows numb

This undying attraction
This unspoken distraction
What ties us together
Is an illusive satisfaction

Letting go of you is my attaining thought
But whenever we part
Against my mind there is assault
Because images of you I'm unable to exhaust

Conspiring to get to you becomes my talented art
Instead of walking away, running to you I start

Please go way from here
Please from my heart keep clear
I've been lured into the danger zone
The consequences of this, before I have been shown

So why pursue it again
Why do my actions I defend
Leave me to myself, why not say
Why not walk away

My Addiction

I'm addicted
For my habit has intensified
I'm addicted
For this drug my urges I cannot hide
I'm addicted
It keeps me up all through the night
I'm addicted
I desire it bad, I cannot fight
Again and again, you are my addiction my sin
Please give me up that I may win

I LOVE A GOOD QUOTE

"In life, as in art, the beautiful moves in curves"

"If you wish to be loved, show more of your faults than your virtues"

"Happiness is a Swedish Sunset, it is there for all, but most of us look the other way and lose it"

"The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good"

"If someone shows you who they are, BELIEVE THEM"

FORGET REGRETS, OR LIFE IS YOURS TO MISS

Concealed In Me

Inside you attempt to go
That my weaknesses I may disclose
But from you I've conserved myself
My inner thoughts, I dare not unfold

I possess what is private and unknown
Hidden to some, my secrets are all that I own

Comfortable it is for me to shade myself from uncertainty
For these walls I've put up
They have become my stability

You try to delve deep to discover what I'm feeling
Not because you are interested in the significance of my meaning
But because you are a fraud
You like to deceive me with the fakeness of your being

As I behold you getting near and around my proximity
Away from you I advance
I see all your deformities

It was yesterday when I stumbled many with all my troubling ways
And where were you when I needed solace through all my pains

Within me where the core of me lies
Where my character and identity hides
Where my heartache and misery thrives
Is she who is real, not ordinary, someone divine

Carefully concealed in me is an army you cannot defeat
My faith, my hope, my impregnability
These are the soldiers that battle for me
You see, I have accepted who I've come to be